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  1. Courage

    Wednesday, July 15, 2009

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    In class probably boleh dimaafkan, but in life you must have your own stand. I took quite some time to think about whether I should or should not join facebook. To see people kissing other people asses. OMG! It is really not a good sight!

    Don't you have your own spine? Wake up!

    I ditch my so-called friends because I disagree with the way they confronted another friend of ours. I think, there are a lot of people thought us(my other friend and me)being the bad guys, yelah... Aku lah yang suka buat bising, isn't? At least, I am being honest.

    Don't ever judge a book by its cover. They may look like angels came from above with no flaws, wont even hurt a fly... but within... only GOD knows...

    To the friends I ditched:"I have my own reasons, a very strong reason to be own her side. She does not have to influence or say bad things about you as I know you as much as you know me. I hate friends who betray their friends. I will not yield until you apologise to her."

    REQUIREMENTS TO RECEIVE FORGIVENESS FROM ALLAH for Offense against another human being or society:

    * Recognizing the offense before those against whom offense was committed and before Allah.

    * Committing oneself not to repeat the offense.

    * Doing whatever needs to be done to rectify the offense (within reason) and asking pardon of the offended party.

    * Asking Allah for forgiveness.

    I am not being religious or whatsoever, just giving a piece of advice...
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  2. Marinara

    Monday, July 13, 2009

    Yes. I cleaned the house!!! The reward:

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    YUMMY!!!
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  3. I was. Yesterday. Atiza as witness. Told Amy about it. PMS I guess. I dont know. But, It's over now.
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  4. Haha... Solved the nuffnang ad error. Rupanya, double http://. patutlah...
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  5. Am I rude?

    Friday, July 10, 2009

    I thought I already properly introduced myself, though I don't give out my real full name but still how should I properly introduce myself? Care to educate me? I even gave a salam. Just say you are busy and I'm not worth your precious time and that is it.

    Plus she is just a librarian. I'm sure that is a good excuse on being snob.







    Unlike Dr something-something here. Totally the opposite of that snob librarian. I get his email from a veterinary forum it stated there they don't give a person that DR title unless it is true. So I guess he is a true vet. (I guess) Wallahualam.



    You can see through my emails to him, I use the same way of introducing myself. Yet, he reply to me sincerely.
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  6. I finish cleaning the house. Tired but still not sleepy. Something is definitely wrong with me. I accidentally read post Kisah Benar Budak-budak Mass Comm and Kisah Benar Budak-budak Mass Comm2

    Some may know why I was furious, some didn't know. Tapi, when I read back the comments, I feel betrayed and furious again. OMG, they were so defensive and self conscious. I seriously didn't know at the time that there were others who didn't enjoy the night, and they went on criticising the event. But they post all comments as anonymous.

    At least I am not a coward, probably those are the people who are close to them. haha. Anyway, let bygones be bygones.

    Cuma, Kelakar lah jugak when I think about it. Tak sangka people who use to menumpang ur assignment can stab u behind ur back. That prove her as someone not worthy of a friend. I pity her friends...
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  7. Risau

    Thursday, July 9, 2009

    She maybe oblivious to what I've contributed. Or maybe not. Still. I feel guilty pulak now. As for him, should he say that? Errmmm... I dont think so. Although I know it is wrong for her to do that, but I dont think he has the right to judge.

    You may not understand what this is about, it is because I want it to be that way.
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  8. Thank you!

    Tuesday, July 7, 2009

    I was in class when I receive a call. The class is almost finish actually. So as soon as the class ends, I call back the number. It's POSLAJU. and I instantly remember Je D'ee Bellissimo. My shoe!! I felt like dancing that instant. haha...

    Neway meet up with that POSLAJU guy in Sunway area. Unwrapped the parcel and I saw a ribbon-like note. AAaahhh... you are so sweet Je D'ee Bellissimo!!! It says there:"Dear ZARA, I hope your kitty get well soon... Take care ya :-) Thnx 4 da support! Hope you'll like it!"

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    As soon as I reached home, I try it on, and here's the picture.
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    FYi Je D'ee Bellissimo, I do like it, wait... Actually not like it! LOVE it! It is most comfortable heels ever!!! It doesn't feel like wearing heels, It feels like wearing wedges. The best shoe so far!!! LOVE IT, LOVE IT!!!
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    If I'm a bad person,
    You don't like me.
    Well, I guess I'll make my own way.
    It's a circle.
    A mean cycle.
    I can't excite you anymore.

    Where's your gavel?
    Your jury?
    What's my offense this time?
    You're not a judge but,
    If you're gonna judge me
    Well, sentence me to another life.

    Don't wanna hear your sad songs;
    I don't wanna feel your pain.
    When you swear it's all my fault,
    'Cause you know we're not the same.
    We're not the same.
    Oh, we're not,
    The same.

    Yeah, the friends who stuck together.
    We wrote our names in blood.
    But I guess you can't accept that,
    The change is good.
    It's good.
    It's good.

    Well, you treat me just like,
    Another stranger.
    Well, it's nice,
    To meet you, sir.
    I guess I'll go.
    I'll best be on my way out.

    You treat me just like,
    Another stranger,
    Well, it's nice
    To meet you, sir
    I guess I'll go
    I'll best be on my way out.

    Ignorance is your new best friend.
    Ignorance is your new best friend.

    This is the best thing,
    That could've happened.
    Any longer, and I wouldn't have made it.
    It's not a war, no,
    It's not a rapture.
    I'm just a person,
    But you can't take it!

    The same tricks that;
    That once fooled me,
    They won't get you anywhere.
    I'm not the same kid,
    From your memory.
    Well, now I can fend for myself.

    Don't wanna hear your sad songs;
    I don't wanna feel your pain.
    When you swear it's all my fault,
    'Cause you know we're not the same.
    We're not the same.
    Oh, we're not,
    The same.

    Yeah, we used to stick together.
    We wrote our names in blood.
    But I guess you can't accept that,
    The change is good.
    It's good,
    It's good.

    Well, you treat me just like,
    Another stranger.
    Well, it's nice,
    To meet you, sir.
    I guess I'll go.
    I'll best be on my way out.

    You treat me just like,
    Another stranger.
    Well, it's nice,
    To meet you, sir.
    I guess I'll go.
    I'll best be on my way out.

    Ignorance is your new best friend.
    Ignorance is your new best friend.
    Ignorance is your new best friend.
    Ignorance is your new best friend.

    Well, you treat me just like,
    Another stranger.
    Well, it's nice,
    To meet you, sir.
    I guess I'll go.
    I'll best be on my way out.

    You treat me just like,
    Another stranger.
    Well, it's nice,
    To meet you, sir.
    I guess I'll go.
    I'll best be on my way out.

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    Preorder starts today: 07.07.09 ONLY on paramore.net!
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  10. I'm hoping to be a new me at the same time reviving the old me. There was a time, before my rebellious years. I love reading. Can finish a book in hours. Afterwards, priority changes. From book to boys. Haha. So, slowly... I'm adapting myself to that habit. Sometimes, I will get distracted. By boys of course (Still) and sometimes by Nicole (My PC).

    Wish me LUCK!!! and prayers... ^_^
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  11. She wore a perpetually martyred expression. GOSH, nyampah gile...
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  12. He is still in the picture k. Occasionally he will come and ask to be fed. I never allow him into the house. Tapi selalu ada niat nak bela dia, so I fed him.

    Yesterday a female feral/stray cat came through my kitchen door. I fed her using Cougar's bowl (never use his bowl to feed my cats).

    Baru tadi, both came. Together. Cougar and that female cat. Hurm. Sangat scary (cougar). Sangat chomel (I name her Pretty) ^_^
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  13. WTF

    Monday, July 6, 2009

    Dont know when since I started using WTF which refering to "What The Fish". Apa ko ingat aku suka sangat mencarut? (padahal memang)


    A4-poster-ENG



    Anyway, I usually grocery shopping at carrefour (dulu sbb mesra card, sekarang entah). And without fail I will bring my own shopping bags. If I forgot to bring it, I'll buy. So you can imagine how many shopping bags I have (Memang pelupa).

    I guess you notice the increasing number or foreign worker in carrefour(Subang Jaya) From cashier to security guard. They follow orders blindly, which piss me off sometimes. Every time I bring my shopping bags, they will stop me and put the bags in a huge plastic bag. WTF? What is the purpose of me using my own shopping bag? Bukan ke nak reduce the usage of plastic bags? again WTF? Afterwards, sampai kat cashier, you have to repeat yourself so many times, tak payah plastic, tak payah plastic... Then wait pulak for the guard to come over the counter and bukak that wrapped shopping bags (cashier takda gunting or pisau). SUCH A WASTE OF TIME!!

    We can see that most supermarkets start campaigning on using our own shopping bag, carrefour included. And carrefour is the only supermarket I go to that will bag my shopping bags with a plastic bag.

    I am not up to making scene at any customer service counter most of the time, but tadi really reach my boiling point. Tak boleh tahan dah!
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  14. Called Dr Chan just now asking about the test kit for FIV, he advise to go for other brand(Even test kit got brand). How do I know which clinic is using what brand, the clinic I went using errmm don't know what brand, and they charged RM80 for a test. If other brand? Probably more expensive isn't it? Aduhai...

    TAPIR seems healthy today, slept at 7 this morning, woke up at 1pm haha! As soon as Im awake, I called Ikmal. TAPIR crawl up to bed and started talking to me and to the phone (I use loudspeaker) He heard Ikmal's voice. Haha! TAPIR and his hoarse cry... Don't know what happen to his voice... Changed since last two weeks, since he is not well. Maybe because of the swollen regional lymph nodes (entah, aku main cakap je)

    Most article I read about FIV stated that infection from infected mother is rare so as from mating.

    "Occasionally FIV is passed onto kittens who's mother is FIV positive. This may happen either in utero or via infected milk.

    Cats don't become infected via mutual grooming, nor will the act of mating, although the biting that goes along with mating may pass on the virus."

    Taken from http://www.cat-world.com.au/FelineImmunodeficiencyVirus.htm



    I have to go and check PUPPY, if she appears to be negative. Then it must be negative as well for TAPIR. I cant think of other ways of him getting the virus!!
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  15. I was browsing my old photos and I found this? WTF? I was probably around 52kg. Anisah is so small!! Haha...

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    Atkins or no Atkins tomorrow?
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  16. I've been emailing with a vet, and he advise me on bring TAPIR for retest and PUPPY for a test. He advise to vaccinate the kittens as well, as if PUPPY is a FIV (Feline immunodeficiency virus) carrier, there are possibilities that the kittens got infected as well. Kittens less than 6 month cannot be tested, so we will never know.

    I bought a studded bracelet from dusky wings. Two of it to be exact. I try it on TAPIR. hehehe... cantik!! So I leave it on him. Usually he will struggle, probably he doesn't like those cheap ones kot, with bells pulak tu. This one is leather like material. So, more comfy kot.

    This is picture of him without the bracelet.
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    Sian my Tapir, his front leg with bandage after vet took blood for the test

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    Habis photo shoot, SLEEP!

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    Since last week, this is his favourite activity...SLEEP. Pic below taken the night before I went to Teluk Intan

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    Gave TAPIR his pills (anti-oxidant, anti inflammatory, antibiotics) Bapak susah! After the first pill, he hide his head under my arm. Manja gila! OMG... nak nangis pulak!

    He knows I love him...
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  17. AIDS Positive

    Sunday, July 5, 2009

    *Cried Hysterically* It is confirm. I brought TAPIR to vet just now as when I got back from Teluk Intan, I notice his saliva is dripping from his mouth. It became worst than before. The doc advised to go for blood test, reluctantly I agree. The blood test cost me RM80 and RM65 for meds. They did the test twice, I'm not sure what happen to the first.

    When the doc shows me the test result, I was speechless. I just nod all the way. I was still in shock I guess. I was almost sure that TAPIR just had a minor sickness and all that will go away before the week ends.

    I went out the examination room, holding my tears... which eventually drops. It is unbearable knowing that your cat will have a short lifespan. As I walk to the car, I cried. still. I just cant stop crying. I called Tiza, Mama, Ikmal, Miza and Amy. Every call I make is a tearful one. Mama advised me that if things get worst one day, and that if TAPIR is suffering from the disease, its better to put him to sleep. As my mother said that, I cried, non stop... How could I do that? He is just a little boy... My boy... The one I took care for 8 month now...

    I have decided. I will probably go and find a second opinion. I want my baby to free from any disease. I want him to be with me as long as he can. God help me!
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  18. Aku ni memang mengikut!!

    Friday, July 3, 2009

    I know twitter is popular, I saw many people jumping into the bandwagon. It is kinda weird to see everybody on twitter as I do not understand how it works! Kuang kuang! Now that I know how to twitt (not twit), somebody have to show me how to stop! Hehe...
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  19. Taken on 2nd July 2009 (Thursday)
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    Sape gelak siap! This is serious business people I only have one and half year to get in shape!

    I had to force myself upon uploading this pic. Sebenarnya MALU. But then again, I know that I am easily demotivated. The world is my witness as I vow to shed all those excess 'no good fat'. My dream weight is..... *Drum roll* .....45kg!!! Alah, kacang goreng je nih!!! Hehe...

    Anyway, School(UiTM) is starting in a week, so it is the best time to start Atkins again. In the mean time, healing is needed as I am having a terrible flu and cough! You will love my new voice, rock and roll bebeh! I have bought myself a few new shoes, once I get my hands on them, I'll post it here. And also few clothes from Dorfbury , Fitting Room, and Oh Popsicles... Shoes from Mezzanine , Shoessaholic, Yunique Paradise and the best Je D'ee Bellissimo.

    Aahhhh.... Best nya!! Cant wait!!
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  20. IMG_2853
    *Pic credits Je D'ee Bellissimo

    OMG, OMG!! OTK, OTK!! I want this!!! I am so in love with this site Je D'ee Bellissimo go check them out and please dont order my shoe!!! take other shoes but mine!!!

    *excited* I am crazy about shoes. Just bought a new shoe cabinet. The one with doors ^^ So that the kids and their mummy cannot mess around with my gorgeous shoes!! Probably tomorrow have to buy another shoe cabinet!! Because I just found myself another blog shop selling gorgeous, gorgeous, gorgeous shoes!! I know my mum will kill me if she reads this...Please don't tell her!! hi hi ^_^
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  21. Drama Melayu

    Thursday, July 2, 2009

    Tapir was taking a nap, when suddenly a little boy named Goku came to join him.
    scene one

    Tapir was unsure of his intention on joining him, that is afterall his spot, so he started scanning Goku's butt (making sure it is clean)
    scene two

    Oh no, it looks like Goku had failed that scan. So Tapir gave Goku a deadly look with a first warning.
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    Since Goku dont wanna move, Tapir attack Goku's butt! Then he gave Goku a slap. Tapir seems to make himself clear of the second warning.
    scene four

    OMG! Goku, you better go now... It looks like Tapir is ready to strike again, look at his paw!! Gggrrrr...
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    Finally, Tapir succeeded in securing his throne... aahhhh....
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    Moral of the story: DO NOT SIT OR COME NEAR TAPIR'S FAVOURITE SPOT!! OR YOU WILL FIND YOURSELF FALL WITH YOUR HEAD FIRST! Hahaha!
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  22. The mother was in Melaka when I took these... I'm still sometimes confused of GOTEN and GOHAN, they look so much alike!!!

    goku

    cici

    burma

    goten

    gohan

    They look different right compare to the previous month? The prettiest face goes to GOHAN and GOKU!! ^^

    Here are some other shots of them and not forgetting their most precious brother... ABANG TAPIR!!! Haha...

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    CICI and my wedding book! (1.1.11)hehe...

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    Would you just look at them... Aaahhhh... SO CUTE... I don't want to loose them I love them so much!!!
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  23. That is what usually people vow in wedding ceremony we watch in 'mat salleh' movies. I vow that to my cats. I'm passionate and obsessed with cats. I was born in 'not say rich' but with money lah I guess, so money is never an issue when it comes to cats. We have plenty of cats at home, since I could remember. I never get a chance to pop 'Do u like cats' questions to my grandma, as she is no longer with us. I know my mother doesn't like cats, she merely taking care of them for us (my dad and our siblings)

    So i guess, she(my grandmother) probably adore cats as much as I do.

    These last two weeks, I abandon my Atkins. As I cannot think of myself for a while. Even 'owl sisters' is deserted. Its all started with CICI...

    She was fine before her mom got back from Melaka (Spayed) They were all as healthy as an ox. They were jumping around, kitchen towels are everywhere, my shoes (my precious shoes) are bitten and scratched and are everywhere as well. You cannot imagine how the house looks like... it was beyond a mess...

    I even brag to most of the people I met on how healthy they were, I am practically proud of myself being a good cat mother to them...

    I went back to Melaka on Friday 19th, Tapir tag along. The kittens were all by themselves in Sunway. I took Puppy from the Vally Clinic on Saturday and we headed back to Sunway on Sunday. They were all still healthy. Until Tuesday night as I were feeding them, CICI haltingly came to me. I persuaded myself by assuring that maybe she didn't sleep properly and that its just numbness.

    The next morning, I saw her sleeping in my dresser. So as that afternoon. And when she still didn't move that evening I started to panic. I wake her up, and put her on the floor. She tries to stand but she couldnt, so she just sat. I called up Ikmal, told him that CICI cannot move. He suggested that I should bring her to the clinic ASAP.

    The first doctor I went told me that she had a feline flu. So, I search up the internet for feline flu and found that symptoms that CICI had did not match the feline flu symptom. I started to doubt the doctor. It is when GOKU and BURMA started walking funny that I decided to look for second opinion. I called Dr Chan from Vally Clinic and briefed him about CICI, he explained that CICI maybe poisoned, but I ask him what about the other two? Are they poisoned too? Suddenly I remembered, all of them still suckling. Which I think is kinda weird as she (PUPPY) was spayed, where does all this milk came from? Dr Chan advised me to bring them to nearest clinic, and I told him I don't want nearest clinic, I want a good clinic with a doctor that can help me!! He suggested a doctor(I cant recall the name) but it is closed early and it's in Damansara.

    I looked up the internet for any good reference from cats lover in Malaysia, they came up with various clinic and it is all closed early. There is one Clinic in USJ that is still open (It was 7pm and the clinic close at 8pm), I quickly put on my jeans and an old shirt, gather the kids, put my wallet, reading material, car key, house keys and hand phone in a sling back. I was ready to go.

    It was probably because of that PC heavy staring when I suddenly felt dizzy... **I'm out**

    I woke up and it was 8.15pm... I started crying and wonder what happen??? My hands started shaking, I felt awful. The Clinic in USJ was probably closed. What about other clinic? That's when I called Ikhwan (Ikmal's little brother) He suggested a Clinic in Section 13, he is also headed that way (JOEY Demam).

    Quickly I drove there, my hands were shaking the whole way. After 30 minutes of waiting, we went in to see the Doctor. He told me that maybe all of them were poisoned (As Dr Chan says) since they all live in apartment, it couldn't be snakes. So it was probably from ants, he said. A-ha, that could be it, as I left them on Fri-Sun, ants must have eaten their food and the kittens ate the food with ants.

    I was charged RM100 (3 shots for GOKU CICI and BURMA & meds for all five of them) Doc ask me to monitor their foods (NO ANTS) and their stool (NO CERI BERI).

    I follow the doc's advised. The next day(Friday), BURMA and GOKU showed positive signs, they can walk and run. That was a relived. CICI can walk but still unstable. GOTEN OK, GOHAN not OK. Doctor did warned me of possibilities of the two kena the same thing and meds were given to the two as well.

    On Sunday, ALL OK, not Great but OK. GOHAN and GOTEN refused to be fed and meds. both are force-fed. As for the two adults (TAPIR and PUPPY), TAPIR was acting weird, and PUPPY is herself (OK). I decided to go for check up again the next day.

    So on Monday, off we go to Shah Alam (again). Initially, I plan to bring all seven of them but insufficient carrier. Doc suspected Tapir has AIDS... Cause he got ulcer all over his tongue and mouth, he got fever as well. OMG AIDS??? WTF???

    As for kittens, Doc says they were fine. Now my concern was on TAPIR, My beloved TAPIR. What in the world? Why they all decided to fall sick? Even I myself was not well since all this crazy sickness started.

    Until today, TAPIR is still not himself. I miss the old TAPIR... the kittens all well now except for GOHAN. She still refuses meds and foods. I hope GOD make them better soon... AMIN...
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